when things don't make sense

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Head Tempter to his apprentice

" sooner or later God withdraws, if not in fact at least in their conscious experience...He leaves the human to stand up on its own legs to carry out from the will alone duties which have lost all relish.. our cause is never more in danger than when a human- no longer desiring but still intending to do Gods will- looks around upon a universe from which every trace of Him seems to have vanished, and asks why he has been forsaken and still obeys."

CS LEWIS Screwtape Letters.

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